Cracks in Progress

I should feel happy and free right now but instead I feel weighed down and stuck. This summer will be good, I know it but right now I just don't have any enthusiasm. Maybe it's too much jumping from one thing to the next to the next. I don't think I should stay after my program ends. I think I should go home and have a break. Because senior year is going to kill me and if I don't have time I'm afraid I will break. This semester has been full of cracks and I'm hoping that the summer will mend them but if not, if things keep going the way they are I might break under it all. So I need to not think about it all anymore and just be free for a while and really feel that way. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it but hopefully I will feel that way soon.