Well it's been a long time and so much has happened. Jamie passed away two weeks ago, his funeral was this past saturday at Bard. He is buried in the cemetery behind the library as he requested. It went very well, I spoke briefly. We all miss him so much. His absence has opened up a chasm of loneliness and longing. I worry about the others.

His family was here for everything and it was so nice to spend time with them all. I'm totally in love with his mom, he was right about how amazing she is. Now it's strange to think that life must go on, I know it has to but it's overwhelming to be thrown straight back into everything. I still have no idea what I'm going to do after graduation. I'm seriously tempted to run away to Ireland or maybe just go to India for a while. Hang around until Prapti gets married.

Whenever I see something beautiful I wish Jamie was here to see it. He always loved taking deep breaths of crisp, cold air. I still can't believe he's gone.