There is a loneliness
in the depths of sweetness
that wraps its arms around me.
I find myself
searching for the comfort
and warmth
that comes from solitary company.
Hearts ache
when the dial reads
full...and empty
but they rumble contentedly
at half.
At times
it hurts,
but then
I adjust
until all that is left,
is me.
Friday, February 19, 2010
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Bullet -Laurell K Hamilton
Shalador's Lady -Anne Bishop
Silver Borne -Patricia Briggs
Naamah's Curse -Jaqueline Carey
Bullet -Laurell K Hamilton
Well it's been a long time and so much has happened. Jamie passed away two weeks ago, his funeral was this past saturday at Bard. He is buried in the cemetery behind the library as he requested. It went very well, I spoke briefly. We all miss him so much. His absence has opened up a chasm of loneliness and longing. I worry about the others.
His family was here for everything and it was so nice to spend time with them all. I'm totally in love with his mom, he was right about how amazing she is. Now it's strange to think that life must go on, I know it has to but it's overwhelming to be thrown straight back into everything. I still have no idea what I'm going to do after graduation. I'm seriously tempted to run away to Ireland or maybe just go to India for a while. Hang around until Prapti gets married.
Whenever I see something beautiful I wish Jamie was here to see it. He always loved taking deep breaths of crisp, cold air. I still can't believe he's gone.
His family was here for everything and it was so nice to spend time with them all. I'm totally in love with his mom, he was right about how amazing she is. Now it's strange to think that life must go on, I know it has to but it's overwhelming to be thrown straight back into everything. I still have no idea what I'm going to do after graduation. I'm seriously tempted to run away to Ireland or maybe just go to India for a while. Hang around until Prapti gets married.
Whenever I see something beautiful I wish Jamie was here to see it. He always loved taking deep breaths of crisp, cold air. I still can't believe he's gone.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Almost Half Way There
It finally feels like winter here, today was the first snowfall of the season and my feet are frozen! That's what I get for wearing vans in the snow.
Two weeks left of school and I'm pulling at the bit to get out of here. I still have a bunch of work to do but I know i'll get through it as always. My birthday is in a week and a half, I'm finally going to be 21! Unfortunately because it's on a tuesday and it's during the last week of school I won't get to celebrate much but Rosie is having a party for me when I get home so I won't miss out :)
I'm applying for a paid internship at Mother Jones magazine for after graduation. It's pretty intimidating but if I get it I will be in San Francisco, which would be wonderful. First semester of senior year is almost over, eek!
Two weeks left of school and I'm pulling at the bit to get out of here. I still have a bunch of work to do but I know i'll get through it as always. My birthday is in a week and a half, I'm finally going to be 21! Unfortunately because it's on a tuesday and it's during the last week of school I won't get to celebrate much but Rosie is having a party for me when I get home so I won't miss out :)
I'm applying for a paid internship at Mother Jones magazine for after graduation. It's pretty intimidating but if I get it I will be in San Francisco, which would be wonderful. First semester of senior year is almost over, eek!
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