Summer Program Begins

I just had orientation for the Summer program. I think it's going to be great! Everyone seems really nice and having friends already in the program makes it even better. Ahhh I can't believe how fast my "free" time went! My mama is coming tomorrow and we are going to the book convention and hanging out for the weekend. I think we're going to MOMA and there's a photo exhibit I want to see.

So much to do, so little time. I know it's gonna fly by. Senior year is already sucking up my air only to leave me gasping, breathless, terrified, and excited. What will I do? What will I be? A year from now I will have accomplished what now seems to be the impossible.

Well the next 8 weeks are going to be crazy and hopefully amazing. The city sure seems to be pulling me in, sometimes I wonder if I'll end up back here after I graduate.

Jumbled Pieces of Dreams

I've been having really strange dreams lately. It's like my entire life combined into random jumbled pieces in my mind. Last night I had a dream about a horse and a family owning a ranch but they were traveling merchants or something and it seemed very complicated and then A and his family was there, who knows why. The horse was like Onyx, big, black, and her coat was so shiny and clean. I miss her. I miss velvet noses and the smell of a barn and the smooth motion of a horse. It's been a long time. Well...someday.

Anyway I have today pretty free so I'm going to go explore a bit.

Something to Remember

"Looking forward is good, but can make you fuck up now."
"They all have their dreams, but the necessity to be in the moment can distract from that."
- Linecook

Cracks in Progress

I should feel happy and free right now but instead I feel weighed down and stuck. This summer will be good, I know it but right now I just don't have any enthusiasm. Maybe it's too much jumping from one thing to the next to the next. I don't think I should stay after my program ends. I think I should go home and have a break. Because senior year is going to kill me and if I don't have time I'm afraid I will break. This semester has been full of cracks and I'm hoping that the summer will mend them but if not, if things keep going the way they are I might break under it all. So I need to not think about it all anymore and just be free for a while and really feel that way. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it but hopefully I will feel that way soon.

Endings and Beginnings all over again

Well I finally had my IR exam and now it's over, thank goodness. Also saw Jaqueline Novogratz tonight, wasn't very impressed. And then we had a little graduation, I got a spiffy certificate and sushi and wine. All that's left is my IR essay and then I'm free for a few days. Next week my mom is coming and we get to go to the book convention, I'm excited! I need a haircut...
Life is good! The Semester is over. Summer here I come woohoo!

My Generation is Ridiculous

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Awkward Family Photos

Sadly I did not get to see Kate Voegele last night, I had too much work.
But I did get into my Novella class for next year! Senior year is going to be insane with the amount of work I'm going to be doing, but it's going to be the good kind rather than the bad.

Monday is my last day at NEF. I have an exam on Tuesday and one more essay for IR (eep!) and then I'm going to be freeeeee to explore the city for a few days, get lots of sleep, and prepare for the summer.

It's gone by so fast...