I just found out that the guy who used to clean the carpets at my moms store and our house committed suicide a few days ago. I've known him forever! And he just sat down in his chair and shot himself twice while watching TV. He has a family, a son. I wonder if it was the economy or depression or just that life had been hard for a while. It takes a lot of willpower to kill yourself. I wonder what separates the people who have the most horrible lives and fight everyday to live and the people who are just unhappy with difficult lives who truly want to die. What keeps those people from doing the opposite?