Time is going by so quickly. Finals are almost here and then it will be summer and I will be starting all over again. My life lately has seemed like one fresh start after another with bits and pieces of the past mixed in.
I feel like South Africa was life changing for the people I spent time with there but not so much for me. I didn't even meet anyone that I felt a strong connection to, I haven't stayed in touch with anyone and maybe that bothers me in the abstract idea that I should have made friends that would last but emotionally I really don't mind.
I just feel so lucky to have the close friends that are in my life that for me the people that don't stick don't matter. When I connect with someone I connect all the way and they become my friend for life, or at least for a while and when I don't the friendship is fairly superficial. I will talk about silly issues and maybe even talk about serious things but then when we part and the hint of connection fades I don't even look back I just keep on going.
Sometimes I wonder if that is what will happen with most of my friends from college and I know it probably will. A few will stick, emails and phone calls and rare visits will keep the relationship alive while everyone else will fade to faint memories.
It's funny to think about how many people enter your life for a brief time and then leave and you may never know how they affected you or even if they did at all. Sometimes i wonder how I affect other people, within a brief period of time or long term, how does my presence change a person? What is the impact when I'm gone? What would the difference be if I had never been present at all?
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